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This is the longest I have ever felt so... Well, not much of anything. Hollow doesn't even come close to describing this.


My favorite Bowie song: 
I am going to miss the journeys each of his new releases brought me on.

"Terrible things
happen to
good people
every day.

Consequentially
I am not
one of the
good people.

I am one of the
terrible things."
-Marianna Paige

This is something I read recently and wanted to share.
I also wanted to share this, Playlist for November

I haven't felt this blank in awhile. Roads could continue on like the depths of the mind, and there is no home. Once you are on this path, things erode behind you. Sucked dried as you move along. Absorbed but not digested; just weighted. The beautiful things that I come upon act as light posts on this highway. The path giving definition amongst the dark. "Light is easy to love. Show me your Darkness" - Red Queen... I am but a peculiar moth, who has begun to love the cold while being in the presence of the warm light.

Something else I wanted to share, a short story by Neil Gaiman story here

out.

Just
So
Gone

Many many things have been running through my head, for so very long. It makes me want to crack my brain and pour it all out, to make more sense of it. Rearrange it out in the open. Being open, that's something I have been trying put out there more. Not being afraid of who I am and what drives me. There have been a many and then a few instances where I actually truly felt like myself. The quick and decisive through process. The commanding nature and strength to take on anything. The knowledge and thirst for more. But then it disappears. And that, is what I'm trying to figure out why.

The Natural Born Killers soundtrack has been on repeat for awhile www.youtube.com/playlist?list=…
I suggested a full listen, and also watching the movie if you haven't.

Halloween is coming soon. I like the change it brings about. Let me shed my mask so you can all put on yours.

"Isn't it interesting what happens, when we only try and give each other the best versions of ourselves?" - Joy Williams

There has also been an influx of poetry coming into my life, and not through me exactly. Through friends, and new people. From random happenings and old things turning new tricks. I've really liked it. It changes my life.

I'm stricken with dread. Not knowing what happened, but it seemed so real. Did I not respond the right way? Her words... So lovely and passionate; they made me stumble and falter in how to respond.
I cannot shake this, nor do I want to. This love will last forever.

The song currently stuck on repeat, "Bitter and Sick" by One Two

Oh (oh) my (my) heart (heart)
No rest tonight
Eyes (eyes) wide (wide) shut (shut)
Shut out the light
Put me through hell again
I miss the fire
Let's burn the other end
With no end in sight

Come on and break me down
I'll let you ruin my day
Flow through my veins
I need a fix
Bitter and sick

Say (say) you (you) know (know)
Try to pretend
One (one) more (more) time (time)
Try it again
Your fingers round my neck
Just how I like
Make me your mess again
Do it tonight

Come on and break me down
I'll let you ruin my day
Flow through my veins
I need a fix
Bitter and sick

Come on and break me down
I'll let you ruin my day
Flow through my veins
I need a fix
Bitter and sick
Bitter and sicker than
Love (love) love (love) love (sicker than)
Love (love) love (love) love (sicker than)
Love (love) love (love) love (sicker than)
Love

Come on and break me down
I'll let you ruin my day
Flow through my veins
I need a fix
Bitter and sick
Bitter and sick